last night, i had a nightmare. in that nightmare, suddenly my math teacher gave my class a very difficult test, and i could answer 2 questions only. actually, the test is very easy, but somehow i couldn't do it. that's the worst.
i woke up after that nightmare finished, and felt so bad. when i arrived at school, it's not getting better. such a boring day. such a plain day. i feel discomfort until now. could you imagine that!? one day full of boring, headache, stomachache, and discomforts!? i wanna scream out loud but i'm afraid i will disturb someone else.
oh.. i forget. today i reread my old post in this blog. wow. she doesn't like me. she's much much more cheerful, stupid, and doesn't care what others think. she looks happier.
but i don't want to back to that time, even though i in the past look much happier than i now. i don't wanna be that idiot girl. the girl who doesn't care about her future. the girl who doesn't know how important her steps for me.
i know it looks like blaming myself. but i always regret. alhough if i could, i don't want to go to that time to change myself. why? because there is no sureness i will be better than now
i don't want to back to that time. i just want to get that feeling again.
I can never get that same scene
or that feeling back again,
So I wonder if I'm just looking back
on my dream that shined in the past
Even though I've moved on to a new future
my sadness overflows and blots my heart
[This feeling] makes a person stop
and lose sight of [the future]
ashita no kioku - arashi
you understand my feeling, don't you?
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