# 罪雪人 #

Thursday, December 10

there are some problems in my school. and the most of them are caused by class division. because we're already in the third year of high school now, so we have to prepare for UN. and because of that, the classes are divided based on academic achievement.

luckily, i could get the smarter class (meskipun gw tau sebenernya gw ga pantes masuk sana)

he does that for your own sake.
why don't you open your mind?
he doesn't mean it!
he said so because he cares about you all!

why don't you let your brain thinks?
think it! think what you have been doing!
don't you understand his position?
don't you even TRY to understand how hard he had tried to make you realize?

he always tries to motivate you
and what do you do then?
you just do the same thing again!
dealing with people like you is very difficult!

and even you feel like you understand now,
you're not going to change, are you?

why are you wasting your time with such a thing?
why don't you do something more important?
there are so many things that you have to do
and you are just too lazy to do it

i know your feeling
i used to like you
don't blame me because of this post
because i just want make you realize
because i don't like to see you act as if he's a bad person

you should thank him

actually you can be more clever than everyone, if you try hard to do it
but you never try it, don't you?

one day, when you've grown up,
you will realize how important his words and treatment to you
you will realize that he's one of many persons that make you become a successful person

berhubung pas gw taro di facebook pada ngamuk, jd gw taronya di sini aje. gw heran aja ma temen2 gw, mo dinasihatin pake cara lembut ga ngaruh, mo digalakin mewek, mo dibuat ngerti susah

kata2 di atas itu yg telah memotivasi gw. soalnya gw dimotivasi ma nyokap gw tidak dgn cara baik2.

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all born into the world, step toward death
step toward the end of life
@9:00 PM

Friday, November 6
not so fine #

Well.. today is not so fine. as usual, friday is the most useless school day. i don't feel good today. i don't know why. maybe i know why, but i can't explain it.

last night, i had a nightmare. in that nightmare, suddenly my math teacher gave my class a very difficult test, and i could answer 2 questions only. actually, the test is very easy, but somehow i couldn't do it. that's the worst.

i woke up after that nightmare finished, and felt so bad. when i arrived at school, it's not getting better. such a boring day. such a plain day. i feel discomfort until now. could you imagine that!? one day full of boring, headache, stomachache, and discomforts!? i wanna scream out loud but i'm afraid i will disturb someone else.

oh.. i forget. today i reread my old post in this blog. wow. she doesn't like me. she's much much more cheerful, stupid, and doesn't care what others think. she looks happier.

but i don't want to back to that time, even though i in the past look much happier than i now. i don't wanna be that idiot girl. the girl who doesn't care about her future. the girl who doesn't know how important her steps for me.

i know it looks like blaming myself. but i always regret. alhough if i could, i don't want to go to that time to change myself. why? because there is no sureness i will be better than now

i don't want to back to that time. i just want to get that feeling again.

I can never get that same scene
or that feeling back again,
So I wonder if I'm just looking back
on my dream that shined in the past

Even though I've moved on to a new future
my sadness overflows and blots my heart
[This feeling] makes a person stop
and lose sight of [the future]

ashita no kioku - arashi

you understand my feeling, don't you?

Labels: daily, scream out

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all born into the world, step toward death
step toward the end of life
@7:03 PM

.::O yYy O::. #

hi. again, i write this when i have to do my homework. but i really wanna write this.

it's like a miracle for me. but it's true! the name of all people i like is begin with 'Y'! don't believe it?

Yabu Kouta
well, i don't know why.. i don't know how.. but suddenly i fall in love with him. it's not normal for me. because he's not interesting at all, but i was interested in him. i wold not even look at him, if my sister didn't promote him to me.

he is the riida of Hey! Say! JUMP. he's also the member of Ya-ya-Yah when he was in junior high school with Yamashita Shoon, Yaotome Hikaru, and Ayukawa Taiyou (did i miss someone? maybe i missed many person).

oh yeah, his birthday is near me (he's born on 31 january, and i on 25. kyakyaaaa)

Yuto Nakajima
he is my first lover in Hey! Say! JUMP. why? because i have watched him in Nobuta wo Produce, and he played as kame's brother. he was really cute in that dorama. and he grows up as a handsome boy.

you know, first you see yuto, you will think he is soooooo nice. especially if he doesn't do make up. he looks like an angel. well.. not an angel. but someone who can be trusted.

Yukihiro Awaji
first japanese star i love! YUKIIIIII!!! kyaaaaaaaaaa!! i know he's not handsome, but i don't love someone because their face.

YOU MUST BE KNOW HIM! he is the drummer of L'Arc~en~Ciel. aaargh.. i don't know what should i say!!? i'm kind of speechless now. aaaarrrgh! i love him too much!

Yuri Chinen
he is also the member of Hey! Say! JUMP! he is 2nd the youngest member of that band. he loves ohno satoshi (the riida of ARASHI). and make nino jealous on him. jahahahaha.

i don't love him, just like him (i can't love him. he looks like a girl). he's so cute. actually, he's too cute.

Yamada Ryousuke
he is also the member of Hey! Say! JUMP. i can't love him too. he's too beautiful!

Yaotome Hikaru
he is also the member of Hey! Say! JUMP (oh gosh.. why do i like HSJ!?) he is yabu's friend, and always seemed with yabu besides him. i think he is yabu's bestfriend, because they have been friends for such a long time.

when he was a child, he's sooooooooooo cute! much much more cute than chinen! YOU HAVE TO SEE HIM!

Yamashita Tomohisa
YOU MUST KNOW HIM! IT'S YAMAPI! first time, i love him. but when i know something's not good about him, i hate him. but suddenly, when i heard that he was sick, i almost cried! and i realized i have loved him too much, and i can't hate him anymore.

Yuichi Nakamaru
he's funny! he's the member of KAT-TUN

Yuichi Nakamura
i don't know. i like him because i watch princess D and kamen rider den-o XDD

Yukito Tsumi
(what? is it wrong if i love myself!?)

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all born into the world, step toward death
step toward the end of life
@5:23 PM